So I get a random IM from _ _ _ _ _ _ the day after I post my last blog up. Guess what it says? " I'm blocking you from this and that. I don't want anymore contact with you.I'm throwing out everything you ever gave me. Its not because I chose her, its because I love her." First off, we had no contact to begin with, besides from the IM he sent me where we started talking about my blogs and stuff, we didn't speak through anything else. I mean, I had him on Myspace but I never used it to look for him and I didn't even bother adding him on Facebook. Now, I knew this guy once. I knew him a lot. And somehow I can't accept the fact that he said this to me. It sounds more like they came from the girl he's with. Whether they were written, dictated or, just said by her. _ _ _ _ _ _ has a good heart. He comes from a great family and he wouldn't lower himself to that. Not that I can say the same about his girl. Anyways, I tried to tell him that we don't have any contact anyways and that throwing out all the things I had given him (which by the way, I told him to do a while ago and he refused to because apparently they were memories and it also helped him remember why he is who he is today) won't really change anything. He can throw out all the solid stuff but one thing no one will ever be able to throw away or erase from him is the memories he has. All the experiences we went through and the time we spent together. So tough luck Sweetie. Anyways, in the processes of trying to talk to him he just shut me up. Another thing is, if he truly loved her as he says he does than he would know when to put his foot down and tell her how things are. Not let her control him like he's her very own puppet.

Later on I found out that his girl had been a stalker as usual and apparently went through my blogs and instantly threatened him to forget his past or forget her, then basically breaks up with him on Facebook. (Thanks to the people that are supposedly her friends lol) Ewww that's so childish. She didn't even have the "titties" to break it off in person. So, knowing _ _ _ _ _ _, and how loyal he was, he probably just wanted to make her happy and did as she said.

Anyways, talking to his mother she told me how his girl had stopped by her house just to throw out everything that I gave him or that dealt with me. Obviously his mom didn't approve of it and she said a piece of her mind to his girl and also said that she doesn't see _ _ _ _ _ _ going to her house to throw out everything she had received from her ex's. By the way _ _ _ _ _ _'s mom is the best person I have ever met. The strongest woman I know and also the smartest. She's definitely like my second mother and no matter what happens between me and him I will always love that woman.

So back to the theme of this blog, no hard feelings though. I still love him after all this. Ugh but I'm so disappointed in him. I miss him. And to top it off after that I have basically ran into him twice. Nothing but a glimpse of him do I try to get. He's said hello, but I don't understand why. I mean no contact means not even a look my way should be coming from him, right? But I've gotten those, when she's not looking. Is there still something there? Am I making to much out of nothing? Can a part of him still be the _ _ _ _ _ _ I knew and loved? I honestly don't know if I'll ever truly know. But I hope someday I do. Till then I'll keep dreaming of my prince charming as he use to be. Cause no matter how much I try to forget him or not think of him, he's the one person that's always in my dreams.