A request from _ _ _ _ _ _ _ himself.
On my last blog I wrote about how we broke up, but now he wants me to add a bit more of details to make it more "truthful." So here you go.
Not only did _ _ _ _ _ _ _ call me and try to get a hold of me. He did it a lot. To a point where I felt suffocated and kind of stalked. I felt that my ex had become some sort of insane stalker. He would be everywhere. I had even heard that he was following my best friends around. Honestly, this scared me A LOT. This made me want to push him away even more. But I was ignorant. He loved me. And all he was trying to do was get me back. Instead I took it as he was just obsessed. Last night I also found out (which is a part he wanted me to add) that he had gone to PA and came back just to be with me, but then found out that my plans were different. I had no idea this had happened. I didn't even know he wasn't in NYC at the time. My plans weren't different. I just didn't know his. Which made us take different turns. All I knew was that he was moving and I had to end this to make things easier on the both of us. But I, personally, learned that maybe the easy way out isn't always the best way out.
Anyways, another missing piece according to him, I choose the person that was at the moment giving me a roof over my head. This meant to _ _ _ _ _ _ _ that I had chosen someone else over him and I had no "real" feelings for him. Bullshit. But you know, maybe one day he'll truly understand. I have faith in that. It's all I have left. Faith.
"It was a fairy tale... at least it was to me. My fairy tale. You can believe otherwise."
So it turns out that even when I pour my thoughts, heart, and soul out, they aren't perfect enough. And although he says I chose him. At the end of the day, _ _ _ _ _ _ _ chose her. That says more then enough. But if she makes him as happy as he makes it seem, then all I can do is be happy for him and just keep my distance as I've been doing.
...I hope this is better for you.
On my last blog I wrote about how we broke up, but now he wants me to add a bit more of details to make it more "truthful." So here you go.
Not only did _ _ _ _ _ _ _ call me and try to get a hold of me. He did it a lot. To a point where I felt suffocated and kind of stalked. I felt that my ex had become some sort of insane stalker. He would be everywhere. I had even heard that he was following my best friends around. Honestly, this scared me A LOT. This made me want to push him away even more. But I was ignorant. He loved me. And all he was trying to do was get me back. Instead I took it as he was just obsessed. Last night I also found out (which is a part he wanted me to add) that he had gone to PA and came back just to be with me, but then found out that my plans were different. I had no idea this had happened. I didn't even know he wasn't in NYC at the time. My plans weren't different. I just didn't know his. Which made us take different turns. All I knew was that he was moving and I had to end this to make things easier on the both of us. But I, personally, learned that maybe the easy way out isn't always the best way out.
Anyways, another missing piece according to him, I choose the person that was at the moment giving me a roof over my head. This meant to _ _ _ _ _ _ _ that I had chosen someone else over him and I had no "real" feelings for him. Bullshit. But you know, maybe one day he'll truly understand. I have faith in that. It's all I have left. Faith.
"It was a fairy tale... at least it was to me. My fairy tale. You can believe otherwise."
So it turns out that even when I pour my thoughts, heart, and soul out, they aren't perfect enough. And although he says I chose him. At the end of the day, _ _ _ _ _ _ _ chose her. That says more then enough. But if she makes him as happy as he makes it seem, then all I can do is be happy for him and just keep my distance as I've been doing.
...I hope this is better for you.
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